after a way too long haitus i have returned. i sit here on my bed in my dorm room listening to a new CD i bought over the weekend. i did a lot this weekend, not too much and not too much towards school but more in life sorting. and also cleaning. everything is going along well, dont worry about me. being home was a nice change, it was so surreal to have my friend Kelley pick me up at my dorm and then wait with me at the train station and then riding home and having my friend leave at her station in DC and then being alone. i don't think ill forget the feeling i got when i officially entered NJ. my conductor lady was so kind and it was so nice passing by my grandparent's train station and then pulling into my very own station. it all happened so fast, my parents were trying to find a parking spot and so i grabbed my luggage turned down an offer for help (thank you, but i can do it, i'm a jersey girl!) and being home. my cat looked so small and was so light when i picked him up (that soon changed after a month!). it was nice to be home but at the same time, it was also very awkward. i dont really live there anymore and neither do some of my friends and so i was there early and sometimes we couldnt hangout. i think, once again, i built up my trip home that it could not live up to my expectations. for the most part hanging out with my friends was a healing time. sometimes, though, i could feel the distance between us. im scared that since PV isnt there to anchor all of us, we are drifting. the holidays were good. i could only enjoy christmas for a day, once again my extended family got me random things that i had to return the next day but for the most part i really didn't want presents, i just wanted to eat ham with my family. i also took along my disposable cameras and snapped a lot of good photos and i was glad to be able to revisit all the winter adventures when i developed them two days ago. they are all up on my way and i love waking up and looking over to my big wall covered in memories and friends. cheesy i know. it was nice being home. i went to nyc with friends and just walked and shopped and got a little lost and went to the diner and had a good day. other days it was a quiet hangout with my friends in a basement or in a nice cafe visit. i miss them and i cant wait for summer to see them again. ill try not build too many expectations but i can tell you that i will be going to a lot of concerts this summer and it is real hard to wait.
anyways, just wanted to check in and let you know that i'm still alive and well and hectic.

stay tuned for next time:
car wreak, my dorm room and a post dedicated to my girl, KITTY, who reads this!